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[threesecrets]

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[threesecrets]

what the fuck are you talking about

[Ronan is of course, immediately worried sick, and still sucks at saying that.]

[burnyoudown]

there's an alchemist
she does alchemy stuff
she needed volunteers

don't worry I already asked if there's any real risk
she said no

she also has a bird?
you guys could be bird buddies

[threesecrets]

okay

[Ronan is not okay.

That does quiet some of his fears, even if he doesn't necessarily trust the idea. But the bigger part of it is that Ronan doesn't really know how to just unwind himself from the knot of worry.]

[burnyoudown]

okay?

this isn't an 'I'm saying okay but I'm really pissed' thing is it?

[He was a little suspicious was all. He probably could have dropped this news on Ronan better than he had.]

[threesecrets]

[He takes a breath. He's not good at this, but he's trying- trying to be better. To find a way to explain how he feels instead of just shutting Kavinsky out because the vulnerability feels uncomfortable.]

I'm not pissed.

I dunno, man.
I just- you scared me, okay?
and I still feel

fuck I don't know.

[burnyoudown]

[Oh...]

I'm sorry

[He didn't usually apologize, not for anything, but this one was genuine.]

I guess I could have approached the subject better
I didn't mean to scare you

but you know
nothing's going to happen to me
I wouldn't do this if I thought something bad would really happen
I just thought
I thought it'd be something dumb and fun to do

[Maybe 'dumb' wasn't quite the right word when he was going to be helping contribute to research, but. He hated the idea that he'd made Ronan worried.]

[threesecrets]

[If something happened to you, I don't know what I'd do - that's the truth, but Ronan doesn't know how to say that. He thinks that Kavinsky already knows, anyway. And he doesn't want to make him feel bad for being careless even if it still sits uncomfortably on his skin.]

I care about you, jerk.

look if you trust her
it's fine
I'm not saying you cant have fun or do stupid shit

I'm not that much of a hypocrite

[burnyoudown]

I know
I just
look

babe
sweetheart
love of my life
I don't want to die
I've got you to live for

I just
I'll keep you updated, okay?
you'll have your very own live feed to alchemy

[And he did trust Christine. He didn't think he'd be in danger or else he wouldn't have volunteered. She seemed like a genuinely nice person and he didn't think she wanted to hurt anyone, either.]

[threesecrets]

[Fuck, but he almost hates how even over text the words soothe his worst edges, settle him so his breath comes a little bit easier.]

I know
I trust you

so what is this alchemy shit supposed to do
aside from making your skin glow
anyway?

[burnyoudown]

stuff like luck and courage
and night vision

I think you know which one I want to try for

[He didn't need luck when he had Ronan at his side, and he'd never needed courage.]

That evening

[burnyoudown]

[Along with the text is a picture, showing Kavinsky with vibrant purple hair and eyes.]

so night vision didn't happen
what do you think of my new look?

ps don't worry, she's working on fixing it

[threesecrets]

I love you no matter what color your hair is

but
it would be a great excuse to let me shave your head
;)

[Is he teasing? With Ronan, who knows?]

[burnyoudown]

thanks man

the shaved head thing might look great on you but I doubt it'd look good on me
I like my hair
purple or not

[threesecrets]

I like your hair too
so yeah I hope she fixes it
but if not I promise I'll still make out with you

[burnyoudown]

thank god for that

yeah she's super embarrassed about it so she's working really hard
apparently in her world there's alchemy schools

[threesecrets]

I cant decide if that's awesome or terrible
I mean
maybe aglionby would have sucked less with classes about magic and shit

or maybe I'd have sucked less anyway

[burnyoudown]

why would it be terrible?
I'd totally pay attention to classes about magic

maybe you just weren't sucking at the right things

[threesecrets]

c'mon you remember the classes at aglionby
they could make anything boring
but yeah I would too probably

[There's a pause as Ronan catches K's innuendo.]

you have a suggestion for better things to suck at?

[burnyoudown]

yeah
you're probably right

[But learning about magic still would've been fucking cool.]

uh-huh
my dick

[threesecrets]

[It absolutely would have. He almost talks about Latin and the main reason he showed up for that was because he thought it was important to the dreaming. So even if the teacher sucked, Ronan still would have been able to stand it if it was about magic.]

yeah?
mr. kavinsky i'm scandalized

[Ronan is absolutely not scandalized.]

but alright
when you get back

incentive to not take too long

[burnyoudown]

[The hard part was not coming across as the horny chaos gremlin he really was while in someone else's apartment. That meant he couldn't laugh over being called mr. or Ronan saying he was scandalized.]

I'll do my best babe
the purple seems to be going away on its own?
but we'll see

[threesecrets]

you don't have to wait until the color's gone
unless she's worried about it or something

i mean
i might tease you about it
but it's not like I mind

[Once he'd settled over Kavinsky not actually being in danger, he'd been a lot less concerned. Now he mostly, well. He wanted to flirt with his boyfriend and maybe call him mister in person, like they were back in Aglionby.]

[burnyoudown]

yea she wants to see how long it lasts and make sure nothing else happens
which is fair
i can't imagine it being longer than like
30 minutes tho?

[threesecrets]

yeah I want you safe and all that
even more than I wanna see your face
and it's not that long i guess

so just get back here when you can
hopefully when i still like indulging you
or myself

however that works

[burnyoudown]

the time'll go by quick
i'll be home before you know it

and i'll resurrect the mood if i have to