Whatever. You're dating someone who thinks working with the Moderators is a great idea, so no one looks too fucking bright right now.
[Using that against her might be petty, but talking about this shit was uncomfortable. It just reminded Ronan of the feeling of having everyone turn on him. What it was like to lose everyone, to be alone.
What he wants and what everyone else does still feel like different things. Like Bryde was one of the only ones that understood what he was chasing, but Ronan supposes he probably dreamt him to. All he'd needed was for Adam and Declan to believe in him for once -- no wonder siding with the Moderators had been easier. He's always the car crash, even now.
At least here he has Kavinsky, though. The only other person that understands how fucked everything is, understands being willing to watch it all burn. But he still hasn't figured out how to bring him back, how to change things, to make it work. Jordan wants a life, but that's all small tricks; bank accounts and social security numbers and medical exams. Ronan hasn't really paused to care about the sweetmetals, because they're too fucking small for what he's chasing. It's not good enough for him, because it wont change the world.]
C'mon. You wanna brag about having a sweetmetal go for it, but you don't need me to set the stage.
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[Using that against her might be petty, but talking about this shit was uncomfortable. It just reminded Ronan of the feeling of having everyone turn on him. What it was like to lose everyone, to be alone.
What he wants and what everyone else does still feel like different things. Like Bryde was one of the only ones that understood what he was chasing, but Ronan supposes he probably dreamt him to. All he'd needed was for Adam and Declan to believe in him for once -- no wonder siding with the Moderators had been easier. He's always the car crash, even now.
At least here he has Kavinsky, though. The only other person that understands how fucked everything is, understands being willing to watch it all burn. But he still hasn't figured out how to bring him back, how to change things, to make it work. Jordan wants a life, but that's all small tricks; bank accounts and social security numbers and medical exams. Ronan hasn't really paused to care about the sweetmetals, because they're too fucking small for what he's chasing. It's not good enough for him, because it wont change the world.]
C'mon. You wanna brag about having a sweetmetal go for it, but you don't need me to set the stage.