The short answer is, she got it in her head that if she took down the ley line then she couldn't bring out the Lace. She wasn't wrong, but that's not really the fucking point.
[His tone is complicated, softer than Jordan's despite the profanity, but he understands why she's angry. He doesn't know the specifics of how their last meeting together had gone, but he'd heard about the car wreck. He got it in a fucked up sort of way- needing to be selfish, so you act like a piece of shit to the people you care about, hoping they wont make you feel worse about it.]
She tried turning herself in to the Moderators before she did it. I think-- I don't fucking know what I think. But I'm not sure she intended to walk away from it.
[I'm not sure she intended for either of you to walk away from it is the part that he doesn't say out-loud, even if they both know that it's there on the hush of the air. It makes Ronan a little bit jittery, makes his hands flex like he can't hold onto the things in front of him.]
But she did. I couldn't talk her down no matter how I fucking begged, and I couldn't even beat her in a dream. She told me I couldn't because I wasn't thinking like a forger. That's what I was asking when I first got back. Because I still don't know how to fix this and I have to. All I have is Bryde and a handful of shitty ideas.
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[His tone is complicated, softer than Jordan's despite the profanity, but he understands why she's angry. He doesn't know the specifics of how their last meeting together had gone, but he'd heard about the car wreck. He got it in a fucked up sort of way- needing to be selfish, so you act like a piece of shit to the people you care about, hoping they wont make you feel worse about it.]
She tried turning herself in to the Moderators before she did it. I think-- I don't fucking know what I think. But I'm not sure she intended to walk away from it.
[I'm not sure she intended for either of you to walk away from it is the part that he doesn't say out-loud, even if they both know that it's there on the hush of the air. It makes Ronan a little bit jittery, makes his hands flex like he can't hold onto the things in front of him.]
But she did. I couldn't talk her down no matter how I fucking begged, and I couldn't even beat her in a dream. She told me I couldn't because I wasn't thinking like a forger. That's what I was asking when I first got back. Because I still don't know how to fix this and I have to. All I have is Bryde and a handful of shitty ideas.